If Today was YOUR last day...

Changes in life...

Soooo.....quick rundown of my life currently. I have an (almost) 16 year old daughter - who is absolutley WONDERFUL. And by wonderful, I mean she is NOT me at 16. She has a great head on her shoulders...and I think I can trust her. That said - she started pre-school 11 years ago. *sigh* which my husband pointed out today as we took our 'baby' to pre-school.

I was completely convinced that people who cry on the first day of their kids' school were total DORKS. Yeah, I LOST it today. I'm talking about full-blown bawling. MY BABY - Rogan - started school today. As we left, Kent said, "I didn't think you'd cry". I said, "yeah, me neither.....can we have another baby????" He said no. :(

Avery - my (almost) 10 year old got his football uniform today for mighty-mite football. I don't even LIKE football. I predict the first time he gets tackled, he will quit. I hope and pray I'm wrong, but I just don't see him being a football jock. He ROCKS at soccer (best on the team, if I say so myself) so I know he'll do great - but I still worry. AND - he wants his Uncle Bubby to coach - he can't, but still - that was HUGE!!!

Tristan is so.....grown-up. Got his hair done, and is such a 'little man' I can't stand it. Growing up - all of them. *sigh* He is in SIXTH GRADE already.

And I got my school books today for my first semester back as a college student. I was okay until I opened the 'statistics' book. *YIKES* I don't even know what some of those symbols mean. I literally started sobbing uncontrollably. I think the emotions were running high today. First the pre-school thing....then...that one thing....then the books. I feel like I'm in over my head, and I'm sinking. THEN - my new best-friend-that-is-my-twin talked me down. We went over a few problems in the statistics book, and I feel more in control. I have support, and people who love me that will help! :)

All that aside, I'm just an emotional wreck lately. Not working and getting 1/4 on unemployment than what I USED to make working is getting to me. We are getting by, but some bills have been pushed back. When I get my school money - it will take care of that- but still....I feel like a loser. If my kids were going to actually HURT b/c of it, I would say 'screw all that' and get a job, but in the long run - this will work out for the best. When I graduate and get have my degree, I'll be making the big bucks - Kent can go to part time and help with the winery....and we'll all be happy! What is keeping me afloat is knowing that I have earned TWO scholarships, and that alone paid for school. I am worth it. Lots of work ahead, but I can do it.

Looking for the good in life - I have my baby Sammy I need to visit (soon I hope!). I have a birthday coming up - Laury too! (she's my twin) and we will have a great time together! :) Kent and the boys will be going to Metallica in September....so they'll be happy. AND - I have a few more episodes of HOUSE to watch to be completely caught up for the new season. (it's the little things)

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Pics of the first day of school shall be posted later...

~ Misty

I've come to realize......

 I’m a horrible blogger. I should have blogged during vacation, but to be honest, it felt like WORK.  SO – I’ll get back to trying to keep you entertained this week.  Tonight though….a cheesy ‘note’ from Facebook.  :p

1. I've come to realize that my chest-size...Is appreciated by men more than it is by me.

2. I've come to realize that my job...is going to ROCK when I find something that makes me happy. 

3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving...That everyone on the road is out to annoy me.

4. I've come to realize that I need to take more time out...to fix things with my husband.  Focusing ONLY on the kids is not a good thing…we keep forgetting that.

5. I've come to realize that I have lost...my figure – after having 3 kids!

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when...I’m ignored

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk...I should hide the phone.

8. I've come to realize that money...causes stress – whether you have it, or not.

9. I've come to realize that certain people...will never change.  Sometimes that’s good, sometimes…notsomuch.

10. I've come to realize that I'll always...be here.

11. I've come to realize that my sibling...is a pretty cool brother.

12. I've come to realize that my mom...is the best a girl could ask for!!

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone...is the enemy.

14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning...it wasn’t morning, and I didnt want to get up!

15. I've come to realize that last night before I went to sleep...I enjoyed time with my hubby with NO KIDS.

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking...I should be in bed, but I can’t sleep, so I might as well entertain the world with my ramblings.

17. I've come to realize that my dad...is really, REALLY, REALLY missing out on knowing the greatest kids in the world.  *sigh*

18. I've come to realize that when I get on Facebook...I know what pretty much every person in Willow is doing that day.  LOL

19. I've come to realize that today...was a good day.  I love good days.

20. I've come to realize that tonight...is almost over, and I should head to bed.

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow...I am going to get a pedicure, and then come home and clean like a crazy woman!

22. I've come to realize that I really want to...get started on school – I can’t even get my books until the 24th!!!

23. I've come to realize that life...isn’t fair – especially when you hope for too much.

24. I've come to realize that this weekend...is just starting, and I hope we have a good one.

25. I've come to realize that the music I listen to when I am upset...is always the same. 

26. I've come to realize that my friends...all live too freakin’ far away :(  And if Laury moves, I’m never making another friend again!!!

27. I've come to realize that this year...is going to be the beginning of a whole new life!

28. I've come to realize that my ex...will always be my soul mate.

29. I've come to realize that maybe I should...erase that last answer, b/c someone will misunderstand it…..but I know what it means, so screw it.

30. I've come to realize that I have to...live my life for ME.

31. I've come to realize that I don't understand...why living my life for ME is so hard????

32. I've come to realize my past...tortures me sometimes.

33. I've come to realize that parties...often lead to trouble.

34. I've come to realize that I'm totally terrified…of grasshoppers.  I almost stepped on one today, and I SWEAR – my heart felt like it was going to pound right out of my chest.  I nearly had a panic attack!!!

35. I've come to realize that my life...is a contented one.