Changes in life...

Soooo.....quick rundown of my life currently. I have an (almost) 16 year old daughter - who is absolutley WONDERFUL. And by wonderful, I mean she is NOT me at 16. She has a great head on her shoulders...and I think I can trust her. That said - she started pre-school 11 years ago. *sigh* which my husband pointed out today as we took our 'baby' to pre-school.

I was completely convinced that people who cry on the first day of their kids' school were total DORKS. Yeah, I LOST it today. I'm talking about full-blown bawling. MY BABY - Rogan - started school today. As we left, Kent said, "I didn't think you'd cry". I said, "yeah, me neither.....can we have another baby????" He said no. :(

Avery - my (almost) 10 year old got his football uniform today for mighty-mite football. I don't even LIKE football. I predict the first time he gets tackled, he will quit. I hope and pray I'm wrong, but I just don't see him being a football jock. He ROCKS at soccer (best on the team, if I say so myself) so I know he'll do great - but I still worry. AND - he wants his Uncle Bubby to coach - he can't, but still - that was HUGE!!!

Tristan is so.....grown-up. Got his hair done, and is such a 'little man' I can't stand it. Growing up - all of them. *sigh* He is in SIXTH GRADE already.

And I got my school books today for my first semester back as a college student. I was okay until I opened the 'statistics' book. *YIKES* I don't even know what some of those symbols mean. I literally started sobbing uncontrollably. I think the emotions were running high today. First the pre-school thing....then...that one thing....then the books. I feel like I'm in over my head, and I'm sinking. THEN - my new best-friend-that-is-my-twin talked me down. We went over a few problems in the statistics book, and I feel more in control. I have support, and people who love me that will help! :)

All that aside, I'm just an emotional wreck lately. Not working and getting 1/4 on unemployment than what I USED to make working is getting to me. We are getting by, but some bills have been pushed back. When I get my school money - it will take care of that- but still....I feel like a loser. If my kids were going to actually HURT b/c of it, I would say 'screw all that' and get a job, but in the long run - this will work out for the best. When I graduate and get have my degree, I'll be making the big bucks - Kent can go to part time and help with the winery....and we'll all be happy! What is keeping me afloat is knowing that I have earned TWO scholarships, and that alone paid for school. I am worth it. Lots of work ahead, but I can do it.

Looking for the good in life - I have my baby Sammy I need to visit (soon I hope!). I have a birthday coming up - Laury too! (she's my twin) and we will have a great time together! :) Kent and the boys will be going to Metallica in September....so they'll be happy. AND - I have a few more episodes of HOUSE to watch to be completely caught up for the new season. (it's the little things)

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Pics of the first day of school shall be posted later...

~ Misty